Sir Asked Me to Be Afraid Sir asked me to write about what I’m afraid of in the
whole lifestyle thing, and then to write what my
fantasies are. I didn’t realize until I began
thinking about it how bitterly I am afraid of doing
that. And the thing I am most afraid of is my
fantasies, is committing those to paper, and then to
have someone else know and read them - is probably
most of all of having those fantasies happen.
Not, not so much the physical acts, everyone fantasizes
about things they would never do, never dream of
doing, but the thoughts/emotions behind them.
Because I fantasize in thousands of ways of giving up
control of myself, and because that is what I
am most afraid of doing.  ¶ 2:12 AM